Some people are scared to dream... this probably never happened to me, known as a daydreamer, sometimes i think that's what i am to do for this life, dream and make them come true. isn't life itself is a dream?
unlike usual, sometimes we get terrified of disappointments when dreaming about something, putting high hopes building imaginary castles and kingdoms, nations... i wouldn't say this is right or wrong, it depends whatever you dream about or wish for, if a dream is a vehicle then hope is the four tires, and will is the gas.
taking about dreams and vehicles, i might be talking about more personal issue, night dreams, since i have no issues with daydreams excpt that i own them, night dreams, am not talking about nightmares, but these visions that repeat and repeat, sometimes they grow with you as you grow older, well maybe that only happens with me, and maybe yes, this dream this subconscious fire department department is flashing some alarm.. ERROR ERROR.
in my dreams at night ; when I'm all asleep physically, i haven't been able to drive a car since i was about 8 or 7 years old , well except for couple of times, i had a lot of passengers with me, i drove in the wrong directions, i went up hills and down to sharp fall...
at younger age i was forced to move the car or accidentally happen to be in the car alone and i ve to drive it avoiding some accident, and while i do so i cant control the wheel, my legs get too short to break or to press on gas pedals.
as i got older, scenarios changed, now I'm in control, but i make a fast turn, or drive somewhere i don't know..
i wasn't ever driven, when when i was young, and its so surprising that i never asked for help when theres always someone next to me. neither when i am older except for three times this year that i was driven, one by a blind man, one by someone i know, and one by just..a driver but driving in the dim.
one odd time i dreamt i was in the back of a bike, enjoying it , happy and secured.
some people don't take dreams seriously, after all, its just a dream. a friend of mine told me once, don't take it badly, its like a premonition something is telling you whats going on or whats going around so you wont feel so sad she said she thought it was blissful.. and i just smiled!!
while people are sacred to dream with eyes wide open am scared to dream with my lids shut!!
back to real life, considering driving, i as every adult went ahead and took the written test first, and to surprise everyone i passed from the first time, and then i had my permit, where i can drive with an adult who has a valid California driver license.. and i drove, i drove wont say pretty well, but i just did, went to cities, went to the high way and AT LAST i thought my dreams are nothing but dreams, and I'm not driven by them at all..
it was the test for behind the wheel exam, i scrwed, so bad!! took it once , twice and three times. and then i had to retake the written test again, plus my permit was taken away.. you know how many times i took the written test? you probably wont want to know.
while i memorize it by heart, i still fail!! its not a matter of failing, but then dreams again start ti haunt me, can i really drive? am i in the right direction? is it live or is it again the dream? am i getting delusional?
it might not be a coincidence, after all things happen for a reason, and weather we see it or not, accept it or not, its always for the best.
It surprises me how everything is connected, i know human can not be cars, neither can be restricted in some frame.
but just let me share some of the facts that came across my mind. maybe i need to learn something from it.
-In California driver license handbook, driving in different weather conditions...
when driving in the Fog. use your wipers to help clear the vision, and turn on the LOW beam headlight.
important tip: If you cant absolutely see anything ahead of you, move your vehicle the far right of the freeway and don't turn on any lights, so drivers from behind wont confuse you with an on the road car and bump into you.
-Roads are most slippery when the first rain spell after a dry day.
-Speeding will let the vehicle skid.
-Avoid fast turns and fast ramps.
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